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My past shaped me into a proud woman. No regret what so ever. My present wants to mould me in something I’m not. Heartbreak lines appear. My future is a pencil line. I carry the eraser. -Driandayaba- 27-04-2016

At times it feels like I want to explode. Shatter my feelings around and not worry where they would land. And then…… serenity took over by leaving anguish behind. It fills me up and let’s me float. A constant want turns into a need. 10-03-2016 _Driandayaba_

I have a room in my mind filled with playful thoughts, objects, pleasures & treasures. As a child couldn’t keep them in line in this rebellion space, to bring me adventures as they meet my way to uplift. Ja, Si, Yes, Ai are the key notes to unlock the door. Doubts, hesitations & secrets are sometimes…

I observe, ask, listen, speak, open up……A crack emerging once again. Uncontrollable craving shows his face. I react, share, touch, sigh, reflect……I’m content, experiencing calmness. Until the cycle is complete…… 10-03-2016 _Driandayaba_

Not dwelling on the past. Announced & executed with no regrets. Asked and trusted your answers. Thought it was mutual. Feel your bars closing with every message. Moulding a key to fit all the locks. Can’t do a rerun of processing events. This feels unreal I set us free. Don’t wrinkle my wings. STOP stealing…

We hadn’t hooked up for many years. Five years ago I saw a glimpse of you, it made me smile inside. Yearning for more. I’ve missed you. Your smile, being balanced, altruistic, loving, caring, understanding, sweet, creative, conscious, spiritual, wise & soothing. I know…. it was my own neglect. It won’t happen again. Now I experience more…