Surrender

My hands following pathways created by genes & test of time. In state of trance encountering lines, nodes, bumps, bones, flesh & muscles. At times my mind drifts & appears with every stroke an image of you. How my senses followed your lines, nodes, bumps, bones, flesh & muscles. Body and mind aligned to fulfill this task….

Captured by reason blown away into pieces. The rhyme in the song of life keeps me moving. Rationally fed through nurture. Driven by needs and surprised by the unexpected. Senses keep me hostage by carrying a positive rage to consume through my wants. It’s knowingly, willingly and able to. This is, was and will be…

I have a room in my mind filled with playful thoughts, objects, pleasures & treasures. As a child couldn’t keep them in line in this rebellion space, to bring me adventures as they meet my way to uplift. Ja, Si, Yes, Ai are the key notes to unlock the door. Doubts, hesitations & secrets are sometimes…

We hadn’t hooked up for many years. Five years ago I saw a glimpse of you, it made me smile inside. Yearning for more. I’ve missed you. Your smile, being balanced, altruistic, loving, caring, understanding, sweet, creative, conscious, spiritual, wise & soothing. I know…. it was my own neglect. It won’t happen again. Now I experience more…

Not dwelling on the past. Announced & executed with no regrets. Asked and trusted your answers. Thought it was mutual. Feel your bars closing with every message. Moulding a key to fit all the locks. Can’t do a rerun of processing events. This feels unreal I set us free. Don’t wrinkle my wings. STOP stealing…

I felt you then, I felt you during, I feel you now. My heart and eyes weep. I feel you slipping back to that place inside me. The one that’s hidden & filled with unresolved desire. My mind wants to keep me safe & is struggling to let you go. My heart screams………… “Who will…