Bee Chill

We hadn’t hooked up for many years. Five years ago I saw a glimpse of you, it made me smile inside. Yearning for more. I’ve missed you. Your smile, being balanced, altruistic, loving, caring, understanding, sweet, creative, conscious, spiritual, wise & soothing. I know…. it was my own neglect. It won’t happen again. Now I experience more…

My past shaped me into a proud woman. No regret what so ever. My present wants to mould me in something I’m not. Heartbreak lines appear. My future is a pencil line. I carry the eraser. -Driandayaba- 27-04-2016

Not dwelling on the past. Announced & executed with no regrets. Asked and trusted your answers. Thought it was mutual. Feel your bars closing with every message. Moulding a key to fit all the locks. Can’t do a rerun of processing events. This feels unreal I set us free. Don’t wrinkle my wings. STOP stealing…

I felt you then, I felt you during, I feel you now. My heart and eyes weep. I feel you slipping back to that place inside me. The one that’s hidden & filled with unresolved desire. My mind wants to keep me safe & is struggling to let you go. My heart screams………… “Who will…

At times it feels like I want to explode. Shatter my feelings around and not worry where they would land. And then…… serenity took over by leaving anguish behind. It fills me up and let’s me float. A constant want turns into a need. 10-03-2016 _Driandayaba_